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Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
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Cant explain how good it has felt recently in regards to the band. we have all been putting effort in and making things happen which is making me so happy, were practicing again 2mro and im really looking forward to getting songs done. I think we will have 5 ready for sharons party now which will be really handy and for the first time make us feel really confident in our songs which i personally think are going to sound fucking awsome!!
Work has been a little cack recently to the extent where theres hardly any customers so im not making loads of comission. its actually cank really and i just chill with the managers
ive been a bit ill and tired recently cos ive been staying up late...getting rinsed.. and seeing my friends and to be honest im having more fun than ive ever had in my whole life and now the fact that the band is confident im on a constant high. Also seeing a certain person for the past two weeks has been so much fun. Im loving spending time with you at the moment. Im having so much fun times.
I havent seen DS, Pakash, Adam, etc for about 3 days which is pretty cack. i will see them at band practice on thursday though which i cant wait to do. Raab is staying over tonight so we can write more band stuff!
Just thought id let you know that im getting SKY PLUS fitted in my bedroom at 1pm today. SO if im not outside like usual i will be inside rinsing the channels like an absoluter bean.
I fucking love my room!
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Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
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Works been pretty tiresome really, the centre has been dead so i havent made like any good comission, to be honest its cackash. ive also felt like shit recently cos ive been weary and tired and stuff and ive just felt like crap. seeing my friends has just about got me through.
Im also trying to feel optimistic about the band at the moment. We all have so many ideas but we never have time to put them together because of work or other commitments. We really need to get down to a schedule where we practice once or twice a week. thatd make me feel like were going somewhere. We recorded a while back too and i thought itd sound phat wen its mixed. so hopefully soon we can get back on track. i just hope my boys are ready to put in the hard work so that we can make our dream come true....
im tired.but raab is staying ove mine tonite to work on a few songs so that shuld be cool.
i need a cup of tea and i miss dan anderson, i think ill ring him tonight!, hopefully have a lay in tomorrow too.
check ya laters
x
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Thursday, August 18th, 2005
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Yeah so i just about passed my A-levels
English language - D
Communication Studies - D
Psychology - E
not particuarly happy with my results but at least i didnt fail any, im not going uni so its not like im guna cut my wrists over ucas points!!
Morag has been on my mind lately.
she rung me the other day and told me she still loves me. In a way i still love her and a piece of my heart will always be for her because she was so special to me but i i dont feel that i can ever trust her again. She cheated on me twice to my knowledge and i feel that she probably cheated on me more times than that too but word just never got out even though the two times she cheated i was there both times and they were both due to alchohol, which is an unacceptable excuse!!
Her friends have told me things about her which makes me think "why did i even go out with her?". but when we were together it felt like nothing else matterd. Now i look back and i think about how she treated me and bascially it felt like she wanted so many other guys while we were going out. Its like she has to be nice and please every single guy she knows by flirting or complimenting them and at the time it made me feel like shit, but now when i think about it, its just the person that she is and i wont change her. Now i know 100% in my heart and in my head that i cannot be in a relationship with her ever again. I just cannot trust her when im not with her and i would only be hurting myself even more if i got back together with her regardless of the love that we had. I do miss her so much sometimes, just the closeness that we shared,the love and the way we did things, just the little things that made us a relationship.. but i know that she will only play away again like she did last time and break my heart again. I will still be friends with her and she knows that i will always be there for her regardless of how much she hurt me, but i cannot handle her ringing me and arguing with me over things that are so unimportant and contradictory!!!. She told me that i need to grow up yet she is the one who hangs up the phone after calling and arguing with me..... it just doesnt make sense!. I think shes just too young to handle a serious relationship, in that she gets drunk and gets with anyone with a black side fringe or a tight tee shirt..yet shes so mature in many other ways!. I feel pretty shit about it at the moment but i feel more than ever that im ready to get over her. I havent gone around and just shagged the next girl coming or acted like the stereotypical single guy cos im not a cunt like that! but she says she still loves me yet prides herself to everyone that shes single and gets with other people. i just cant be dealing with that right now. We need to both be getting on with our lives and move on so that we will hopefully both find happiness in our lives. I will still stay in touch with her but i will never love her like i did!
With that out of the way im really happy about my band at the moment. We recorded a demo thing a little while back that with a few tweaks i think will sound really heavy. Im looking forward to practice next week so that we can work on new songs for sharons birthday party. Also we have been asked to play the glasshouse in USA next year which will be a fantastic experience if we manage to do it. Im happy with writing new songs and that but i feel we shuld hang around and meet up together more as a band and get things done!! I hope my optimism is spread throughout the band!
Wotk is being well good recently. i make shit loads of comission and the people there are well alright.
Im really enjoying my life at the moment.Im having the best times EVER
Just in general I want to thank a few people for making these times so unique...
Raab- just for being one of the best friends in the world
DS- For being there for me no matter what, For believing in me no matter what, and for loving me no matter what!
Tommy t- For being my longest best friend and having those little things that make us laugh I love you so much..
Pakash - Im so glad ive found you in my life. Your growing on me so much as a person. Your such a great kid and i feel we will have so many fun times for years to come.
Adam A- The same as pakash really mate and the fact weve become so close of late. I just love your company
Kp- For his excellent smile and his cheekyness, again i really enjoy your company
Emma - Just for being there for me recently, Our chats and just sharing time with you has made me alot happier.
Heidi - For being there for me 24/7 365. and for being one of my longest best "girl" friends.
Lucy - again recently since ive been hanging around with everyone we have got to know each other better and i feel like i can now call you a proper friend.
Calland - for his chiefing and his jokes. Again a friend who i can talk to about anything and will always make me laugh!
Basically i havent been on the internet lately because ive had so many things going on and the internet wasnt really a priority. I dont use myspace any more..thats been deleted, I dont use msn anymore because id rather see the person face to face regardless of how much i dont see them, im only a telepphone call away 07969 679 053.. so im sorry if u have missed me but i will probably only be using livejournal from now on because its the one place that i can write whatever the hell i want!
i still wana get my letter from my pen friend Mindy however, because i just wanna see what shes written, hopefully she still has my address... our convos were always fun..
Anyway sorry for the long entry. ive just had alot of crap on my mind and i felt the need to express it.
On that bombshell im off out to see people.
Night Night xx
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Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
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Yesterday was actually well good!!!.
I had a phat day at work and just drank tea on the shop floor and played Baulders gate on my fone.Well enjoying the new job. Dont however like the fact i have to take my lip piercing out and it closes up after like 1 hour and i have to force it back through which fucking kills! I got paid for some reason so treated myself to a fit new pair of trainers!!
 THESE ARE THE BAD BOYS !
Met Ad and Pakash at the park from work. Got home and changed then went back to shell for a zoot where we met Jack and Alex. Jack gave me a cherry bakewell which i was very appreciative of :). Then Ad got me and sharon Sausage and chips and we drove over to lucys. Everyone was pretty wrecked wen we arrived which made it even funner. Me ad and ash played some guitar...We all listened to David Bowie and me and ad had some of our benners left so we rolled that together and had a nice one :)....
We all just sat and chilled at the end of lucys garden...then lucy made me and her a cup of tea which went down very nicely. But the evening was marred but a slagging match between Kelly and coxy which resulted in kelly getting drenched with wine and both of them being kicked off the premises. Regardless of if it was funny it was abusing lucys house which aint very nice and they were both pretty wasted i think.
However after they left Kc turned up with Fordy,Emma, and Kayleigh wanting to pick up so Ds sorted that out and in the end Calland came over and picked me, pakash, and ds up and took us to turd lane where we met Kc butcher privs, Emma, Kayleigh, Heidi, Tommt T, Fordy, Mergy, and Calland was also biggin it. We had a few bottles and then just chiefed it around. Stratford slumbered in Kc's car and boysied out at about 1am and went home with a smile on his face. as did emma and kayleigh.
So the rest of us devised a game where u have to walk along a centre curb and reach the end in the fastest time. I have to admit Pakash put up some good competition but i managed to beat him with a time of 3.11 seconds. So basically i sprinted the whole way. Mergy had a benners which they smoked and then we decided to call it a day and we walked back about 2am...
I got home. made food. Read some Harry potter and went to sleep
Had some weird ass dreams...
Today woke up at 7.50 to get ready for work and felt like absolute shit!! i called in sick and my head is pumping and feels cackash. I really wana see people but i cant go out, so want someome to come round mine!. I text lucy but she aint replied and nobody else is round.
Looks like its back to tea and harry potter for me then........
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Thursday, July 21st, 2005
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One of the BEST weeks of my life...
All week been Beanoed with my best friends and its been THE BEST
Pakash stayed round mine Monday to Wednesday and i had well loads of fun drinking tea and chatting with him. Weve got along well good recently. We were never really close before but recently hes becoming a well good friend!!
Been swimming round Ad's. That was well fun. Playing Juice and kicking T.K's seal pup Yellow cars ass....
This week i have appreciated the company of....
- KP.. because he has been fucking great...always my favourite
- Raab and Sean because they are always good...
- Smithy...For pulling me the Destiny
- Adam and Sharon..for having me over his and caning me/chiefing it with me and calling me Boyzone
- Stratford just for being there and being my best friend and i love him so much
- Pakash for being alive and crashing at mine...was well fun times
- Coxy because we talked alot
- Yardley for his bmx trix
- Westbrooke for chiefing it
- Lucy because of her good cuddles and the fact she brought me tea to the park!
Ive missed Thomas Turner however and wished he'd have come out and spent more time with me...Ive been missing him... Guna make an effort to see him next week!
Ive also appreciated the company of my new phone which actually rinses out
I however have not appreciated....
- Going out without a jumper
- The amount of gnat bites on my body is actually rediculous
- The lack of TT in my life
- Lack of Band Practice :(
- Lack of FF Fest...
Im looking forward to work tomorrow for the first time in ages. Carphone warehouse hours go soo fast and the people are safe...and i can use my fone and drink tea on the shop floor!!!
I cant wait to go out again with my boys and girls again next week... Gunna get rinsed
Also cant wait to read a certain persons long distance letter :).....
The new Harry potter is also becoming very interesting....
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So Yesterday i actually had a good day at work....
I went up to Trafalger square to meet mog and i chilled with her friends for ages. it was actually a really good night. I met so many genuinely nice people.
On the way home we got talking and one thing led to another and we just chatted for ages about things and we both realised that it wernt meant to be between us. We both want different things from a relationship and we just realised it wouldnt work out in the long run. It was things were happening in our lives that we felt could hinder our relationship and we didnt want to carry on and make it hurt even more. The way it felt was Even though i was out of my mind in love with her, i am glad we split because i felt sometimes that i wanted the relationship alot more than she did. Im sure we will remain good friends because we went through nearly 5 good months together and shared so many memorable times. but you can say its an end of an era of my life but im glad it happened and hopefully a new era will start thats even better than this one....
But now ive gotta focus on getting my job routine down, Band practice every week cos i really cannot wait until we are back on track and have good songs written and recorded. and Im so lookin forward to having the time of my life gigging with my 3 best friends Raab, Tom, Dan and hopefully i will find a girl in the future that will love me as much as i love them....
anyway start my new job tomorrow and im actually looking forward to it.
cant wait for this week, im just adamant that i will have the best time ever for some reason, and i need to see raab at least once.
The bad news is I didnt get to buy harry potter book cos of no money. That isnt cool. I will have to try and blag it from somewhere!!!!
BS
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That makes me happy :)
Last night was good. chilled round steves and watched Star wars....Then went to the pics to watch the new one on its last showing....then got home and watched the rest of the trilogy. Geeky i know but i fucking love Star wars so it dont matter. Ate loads of bad food....Laughed at stuff and drank about thirteen cups of tea...
Got home late cos the traffic. Got work at 8.30am tomorrow which fucking sucks. cant wait to start my new job on Monday!!...but im staying at mogs tomorrow night unexpectedly...So thats all good. think were having a bbq.
New harry potter book is out tomorrow. That is just beautiful isnt it. Blatantly cant wait to read it. Gonna be fantastic!!
Im in a well happy mood. good people are on msn. I have 2 DVDS to watch, harry Potter is out tomorrow, I have good food in my fridge...Ive had the best week i think ive had in my whole life this week. Got a new job, spent tonnes of time with my boys and girls, Seeing mog tomorrow before her holiday which i didnt think i was gunna do, .
Basically its all fucking good, Im well happy :) Happiest ive felt in ages...
AND........It feels good <3
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Thursday, July 14th, 2005
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| Subject: | Happiness |
| Time: | 12:29 am. |
| Mood: |  content. | | Music: | Funeral for a friend - End of nothing. |
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I got the job !!!!!!!!!!!
start monday at the carphone warehouse, will be a new experience for me and im well looking forward to the challenge!!
Had Tom and heidi round last night and it was a well good laugh, tom bought me all you can eat chinese and cinema tickets to war of the worlds. So the film was fucking excellent, id well advise you to go see it.... as was the company of tom and heidi, we got home and heidi played silent hill and me and tom banged on some resident evil and mario golf. Watched some poor late night tv (Rikki lake) till 3am then slept till like 11am when the bloke from the interview rung me and told me i had the job. Woke me up but i didnt mind tbh.
Spoke to mog for a while. she had a fun time at ffaf. Dunno when im seeing her next, down to her really.
Had such a great day today.Went down to meet everyone at shell then went back to ads and watched a mudvayne dvd. They are actually a well sick band. so fuckin set clear live and well good musicians, The bassist was incredible.Dead Impressed!!
Everyone good came out by the end of today and i got absolutely rinsed with start,matt,kp and aldrige round shell at like 3pm and i was still mashed at like 7pm. was well fun. cant remember alot that happened in those hours other than pakash turned up and i enjoyed it alot. Everyone was out by about 8.30. Lucy,Pearl and Jessie turned up and Jordan had done the NICEST thing for me. She had brought me a bottle of tea and wrapped it in foil to keep it warm. I actually appreciated it so much cos she didnt have to do it and she knows how much i like tea. It was so nice cos i was getting cold!!! so thanx to jordan for that it made me alot happier. As did the turning up of TT, Mergy, Calland, Ross, Sean, Rabb and Pony all at seperate times throughout the night. We played one round of runouts but were all to fucked by running that we sat down. Just chilled out talking and laughing with everyone. It was well relaxing and well enjoyable. Im loving going out with these guys recently. Its guna have to become a regular thing.
Some other things I did was....
- try to ponce fags off shitsy
- Laughed alot at Russell Bailey and the whole Hudson family
- bought £2.90 worth of cheap sweets and made the woman count them all... took her like 10 minutes.
- Learn to roll. Im pretty cack but still...
- Got text booked by DS on two seperate occasions..
- Got compared to Butcher by Aldrige about my guitar skills, we set some boundaries
- Did 3 bad breeds in a row. Strat was impressed
- Got chased by TT and others
- Canned calland for being him
Got Band practice tomorrow and im well looking forward to it again. Cant wait till were tight on at least 5 songs and were guna have to put in alot of work to make them perfect but i cant wait till were back on stage rinsing again... its the best feeling EVER....
then im probably going to stay at my mate steves in the evening for a gathering. Shuld be cool. might go cinema with some people.
dunno what im doing friday. probably go out with everyone again...
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| Subject: | TODAY |
| Time: | 10:41 pm. |
| Mood: | content. | | Music: | Avenged sevenfold-Bat Country. |
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was actually well fun
Ds stayed over last night. We stayed up and talked until like 5am about everything and everything but mainly girls and music like we always do when we stay at each others,We also played shit name games with bands and sentences. Always enjoy his company. it was really good chatting to him. Ive missed him so much of late. I think back to how much time we spent together in the end of school and college and it sickens me the amount we see each other now days. Im gunna have to make an effort to see him more. I love him so much....
Bsically Pakash called at like 11.15 and came over mine. Me and Ash had a nice brew together and we all watched kill bill 1. Went to Aldrins and chilled for a bit. Me and ash went to pick up and then we all went down shell. Basically after that Pakash and matt rolled and me,Ad.Ash,Ds,and Smithy got absolutely rinsed. stratford was pulling sick breeds for me and i took them quick fast and it got me absolutely rinsed for about 3 hours straight and it was so fucking good, my eyes were a disgrace!!!.
We missioned it up to westbrookes cos Ad and Matt had to meet him. So me Ds and Pakash went alldays and we bought some hence muffins,cherry bakewells, allsorts and drinks and ate them waiting for Ad and Matt. Then we met westbrooke and all went up Corringham rec and chilled it out, The sun was hot. The tops came off and we just chilled.Saw an excellent fight between some fat girl and some any,Slagging off and pushing for about like 30 minutes. they didnt throw any punches which was dissapointing!!! but good entertainment all the way. The fact Mark kitts was there made it even better of an experience. There was so much grunge today at the park.I saw 3 pairs of bolt jeans. A Slipknot tee and New rocks tucked into some shit jeans. The one with the new rocks decided to speak to me and dan and tell us her name. We were too rinsed and pretty much ignored her, was actually pretty funny. She was blatantly one of these girls who would describe herself as "Random" or "spontaneous".
Then Kp, Matts Bro and Yardley came over for some fun. But Ad left at about 6.00 for dinner then Strat went to kc's so the rest of us just started playing shit games that involved making weapons out of branches and leaves and aiming them at westbrooke. It was actually quite funny and i managed to get a good tan :). Kp was excellent today!! just being himself made me happy. Also appreciated Ashleys generosity with his food. I love him too. Watched the sun set and looked for some cloud formations. I saw a Star wars imperial star ship and it well looked like it. Kp appreciated it.
At about 8.45 Others come out. Coxy just appeared then Basically loads of girls turned up. Kelly, Lucy Jordan, Jessie Calder and some other spoofs i didnt know. Kelly and Lucy come chatted to me for a bit, kelly nicked my fone and started taking pictures on it, i really should see what she took!. Me and Ash left about 9.50 cos he has work 2mro and i have a job interview for a job which im hoping to get!! if i play it right.
Got in...Mogs out tonight, round her mate lee's house. Im sure she will have a fun time!
Looking forward to the interview 2mro then band practice. cant wait for that. hopefully we will get a load done, Itll be cool to see raab and tom too cos i havent seen them properly in time!!
I cut every single last one of my pubes off in that area, again the other day for a laugh and i do prefer it better. but... basically they are itching like shit. swear it wasnt this bad the first time. the heat didnt help!!
goodnight people. <3
ps. The scene kid is hot! and hopefully writes good letters... just bare that in mind. thanx xxxxxx
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| Subject: | bling |
| Time: | 7:29 pm. |
| Mood: | Gim. | | Music: | Eastenders theme tune. |
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Sunday/Monday/Tuesday.
Had a well good weekend/week, basically had final fantasy 7 fest for three days with Tommy T, and Spalland, was actually well fun and we rinse out basically,went down the catcracker and had a few games of pool,darts and a few bevvies.. my room was such a mess when we left it after ff fest, Got my job interview next tuesday at carphone warehouse, im pretty optimistic. I reckon ill get it. i had to go out and get suit stuff. trousers/shirts/shoes etc, im blat guna look like a chav!!! I dyed my hair all black again for the job interview. It actually looks pretty good compared to the blonde on one half. I like my hair at the moment :)
Wednesday.
Travelled up to see mog for the day. Had such a good time. We didnt do anything in particular but just chilled out together and watched a film, helped her with her homework, took some pictures and just had a relaxing time. I really felt like it brought us closer together you know. I love her so much its unreal. I was at hers so long i was purposely late for the train home and my mum got pissed off, i got home bout 11.15pm and LB absolutely bricked herself. Honestly didnt care. Watched the metal hammer awards when i got in to see if u could see me and mog in the crowd but the camera was like the opposite side of us. Was cool to see the bands live again though. Rung DS at about 2.00am cos i was bored and he was chiefing it at usual, had a good chat though. I miss him at the moment :(
Thursday.
Mog rang at 10.15am. to let me know some rack off bomb thing had gone on in london. i was pretty asleep and just fell asleep again. then my dad rang about 1/2 an hour later and was worried i was in london today. duno why he would think i was there??? then LB rung and bigged it about the bombs. again i fell asleep. I was so tired. Then i woke up at about 3pm and turned on the tv and it was all about the bombs again. SO i watched friends and played guitar until about 5pm. Went through and learnt most of the stuff from guitar techniques. soloing shite basically. My little finger now hurts though and i REALLY need a metronome. Going out tonite with step dad for dinner at Aroma. should be cool to catch up with him, i havent seen him for a while. I cant wait for the interview next week. Im actually excited about it...
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I had a good nights sleep at Last!!
No bullshit Albatross spoofs chirping on my roof.
No pre 10am phonecalls.
No mum waking me up
I was asleep til like 1.30pm
Was actually the best sleep in ages
I was really worried about her last night after her car accident. i felt so shit, I just wanted to be there to help her and hold her, make her feel better, and make sure she was safe but i couldnt and it felt cack!
nothing new on myspace, I got bored real quick then went back to bed for about 10 minutes then mog rang. I wernt really in the mood to talk to be honest.I always get the impression she isn't as bothered about seeing me as i am about seeing her :(
Rang Tommy T, he didnt go live 8 in the end which sucked for him, hes coming over after sunday dinner, Hopefully he can put me in a good mood. but i have Artimes leftovers and more joss sticks so its all gravy.
Was meant to be going to a christening for my cousins baby today. Me and mog got invited, i got bored at the last family event so I only would have gone if she had come round.
FF fest tonight if Calland is up for it. He better not make some poor excuse again. Should be fun if it gets underway.
Got nothing planned for the week, hopefully seeing her one day if she actually wants to see me, pretty sure ill hang out with friends. I need to go out more in the day but sleep is so fucking necessary.
time to go watch friends and get bored till TT comes over.
hope we have a good chat when she fones later
check ya later
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Couldnt sleep again!!!!!!!
mog wanetd to speak to me at like 2am, it was cool stuff cos i really wanted to speak to her, so we had a well fun phonecall...
Then i went to bed and finally got to sleep, i got woken at like 7.15 by some shitty golden eagle spoof on my roof!! singing like a cunt!! i couldnt get back to sleep cos for some reason i kept reciting the whole coheed album in my head and i couldnt stop thinking about it!!!! so i didnt even get a lie in cos the alarm bricked itself at 7.50.... Time for work.
Work was actually ok today, i was working with all the boys in the company and we all get on well good, i heard a good Richard whitely related joke. just ask me to say it when you see me...
rung mog on 1st break had a good chat, rinsed some Time for pets phone bill like... She was gettin ready for FINCH. Hope she has a good time..
It was funny cos some grunge girl in a slipknot tee shirt decided to stare at me for like 10 minutes.Then she plucked up the courage and came to talk to me and asked "it must be fun working in a place like this...." i was like "ummm na" i spoke to her about music and stuff for like 1 minute cos i had customers and she was with her parents and she liked a few ok bands, i told her i saw joey jordison at the metal hammer awards when i went with mog and she bricked herself about how good he is, I laughed at the slipknot tee as she left... bless her tho she was only like 12 years old lol
My mum bowled it into my work and gave me dinner ££££. She bought me a new belt, its actually well nice, :)
those were the most interesting parts of my day. Oh no wait on my lunch i went and saw Michael lane around the back of KFC, hes always such a happy chappy....went to find shaun but he wernt working. Neither was Ben Browning so i came back to T4P and read the newspaper and drank some water and ate Vimto sweets, They are soooo fit!!
I bought fags today for the first time in like a week,Malboro lights innit. im desperate to smoke one but LB will blatters smell that shit from my room!! ill have one later when me smarm and the posse go down for Artimes.Its guna be another smash Bros night me thinks. Should be fun.
Got nothing planned for tomorrow. Was guna be seeing mog but she aint allowed or cant come or something cos she went finch today. Probably see her in the week or next weekend.
Final Fantasy fest has been suggested though, its just whether Calland is being a Coonburger or not...Tommy T is deffo up for it!
I really should hang out with DS, PAKASH and ALDRIGE more. Swear i have so much fun with them guys. I mite see what their doing in the week. Their all Slackers like me now so i could use their company. Maybe write a new Nu Metal song to record at Ads.. Blatters Tapping and Sweeping
I play Guitar too much. I need to stop it. Its becoming an Obsession...Just like tropical juice and Joss Sticks. My room makes people think im a fucking hippy for christs sake. But it smells so good..
Anyways laters
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| Subject: | BS |
| Time: | 8:29 pm. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | Fear before the march of flames. |
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TODAY
woken up AGAIN this morning. this time by text message at 8.38, then 3 phonecalls before ten, i swear people shouldnt ring me so fucking early, like at least allow 11am , i havent slept in like a week because of the fucking early calls and i go to bed late because of shit insomnia. dunno where the fuck its come from but im totally drained!
Watched wimbledon semis. was fun and entertaining because i had tropical juice
went round raabs at bout 3pm. We talked about music, friends, relationships pretty much everything,it was really good talking to him properly.I need him in my life.
We then played fifa for like 4 hours and burned about 10 joss sticks.
We created a fifa football team of people we know, we laughed so fucking hard heres our team......
GK,542
LB,Larcher
RB,Jacob Martino007
CB,Shaun Howe
CB,cant remember
RM,DS
CM,Lauvan
CM,Rib
LM,Pakash
CF,Adam Aldridge
CF,Taf
Taf was blatters our top scorer 13 GOALS..... even 542 scored
Came home and mum bought more tropical juice, its one of the things that makes me happy at the moment, as well as joss sticks
i really need to see her soon, i know she hates me saying it but miss her like crazy, even if i could see her for just a few hours in the next week, i love speaking to her everyday but i just need to feel her love more physically and visually sometimes. I just want to hold her, and show her i love her. its hard because of the distance but its soooo worth it when we do see each other, we have such a great time...i would always make sacrifices for her. its whether she wants to see me.....
Im hopefully getting a full time job at the carphone warehouse soon, it looks like 80% likely... should be fun if i get it cos i know someone who works there and their safe. their guna put in a good word for me. The money is good too and theres comission :) and also they pay for a two week training course in london too. that might be cool...
Gunna have a shower then watch the film "day after tomorrow" dunno if its any good
really cant wait for 10 hours of work tomorrow..
sense the sarcasm????
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Thursday, June 30th, 2005
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i just signed up here
it seemed like a fun thing to do
RIGHT NOW...
1,my room is cold.
2,mog just phoned. i just love her voice. she makes me so happy.
3,i watched kill bill one and two with mum and ginge,we had chinese takeaway..it was fun.
4,i need a cup of tea.
5,i really hope DS is ok.
6,The fact it rained at wimbledon today is still pissing me off. and i dont know why.
7,i dont have an incense stick burning, i have become addicted to them.
8,Tonight was meant to be final fantasy fest but spalland was being a tossbank
9,i just got an incense stick on the blaze, it smells good
10,i miss dan anderson, i havent spoke to him for months :(
11,i really need to think about getting a new job properly
12,im soooo fucking tired but cannot sleep AGAIN
13,Nobody is on msn that i want to talk to, they are all anys that i dont really care about!
14,i really wish i was seeing her on sunday but shes busy :( i dunno when im seeing her next.... i fucking hate distances with a passion but it is so worth it when we do see each other :).
TOMORROW
1,hopefully im going to raabs, i havent seen him properly for a few weeks,i like chatting to him, it should be fun, Mario tennis and fifa :)
2,Im not going out tomorrow night, no money,and pet shop on saturday :(
3,I will have a lie in cos i fucking need it!! i dont appreciate irish phone operators calling me before 10am!
4,i need to wash my hair
5,I will finish reading the amber spyglass.. ive been putting off the last chapter for too long
now im going to bed
goodnight <3
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